Today I had a “moment” of sheer panic….YIKES………that I SHOULD know what my plan is…for the next whatever…….and I have only been retired 7½ weeks……but the lack of structure is really killing me……I felt like I was “falling” and not sure where I was falling to….. My organization skills went right out the window, and I am very “discombobulated”….I have missed appointments, which is unusual as I have lived by the calendar for 35 years….forgotten some important things and really feeling out of sorts. I have lost control of time and seem to be doing things on “auto pilot”……….When I had limited time, I was very effective, productive and organized, as I only have a few minutes to get everything done…Since I don’t have that “time pressure”, I am finding that I have difficulty prioritizing my time. I also am finding that I am sometimes filling up my day with “place holders”..It’s almost since I was so insanely busy for so many years, I feel the need to overbook the calendar AGAIN in my new world….and not have any space…….or “down time”….Once again, old patterns tell me that if I am crazy busy, I am more effective and productive (such corporate words) and get all my things done……So, now I am addicted to my calendar and schedule again…so I am going into calendar recovery and will promise to book some time for me!!! Seems like I have missed the true meaning of retirement!!!!!